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Self Distructive Binge

dawniegh — Fri, 31 Oct 2008 23:58:50 +0000

ok it’s Halloween and I haven’t blogged in a long while.I have been on a self distuctive binge for about a month or so. The water retention has got me so frustrated and I don’t really care any more.I’m tired of always watching what I have to eat and drink. I feel so tired and yukky all the time and I feel like this even when i eat good. The doctors can’t find anything wrong but i know something ain’t right. I’m sorry if I let alot of you down but i am only human. I have been doing research on Lupus and I’m gonna have my doctor run a test for it.I have alot of the symtoms and i found out that on my fathers side there was alot of autoimmune diseases. I don’t want to have it but itwould be answers to why i feel like I do and I will know what todo to make me feel better.

I still get on here and read blogs cuz i find them to be so encouraging in my world that seems to be discouraging. Blessings to all.

Soooo Frustrated!!!

dawniegh — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 07:49:05 +0000

Well…I guess you can call me a quitter or not , but i have done absolutly nothing for about a week, or maybe a lil longer. I have worked so hard on changeing my ways and all i’ve gotten was a scale that says just a lil less. I deal with alot of water retention and the doctor gave me pills for it but it works for about two hours then all the retention comes back. They have ran test for heart , kidney and other things and no answer. I’m just so frustrated, I think I am ment to be a big lady. I’m tired of trying..I think I give in!!I have eaten out all this week and the only exersice I’ve gotten is raising the fork to my mouth. Oh and the soda can. I really don’t even know where to go from here, I guess one day at a time but as of now there is NO motivation-In my mind i keep thinking I try so hard for what? to still be fat! I watch other girls and all they have to do is just cut back and walk and they melt away. It just isn’t fair!! I just don’t get it. Even when I followed weight watchers. The weight barly moved. i’m not in good space right now— Sorry to burden you all just needed to put it out thee. Thanks for listening.

Salt intake, water retention and weight lose

dawniegh — Thu, 02 Oct 2008 06:40:49 +0000

Does anyone else here have a hard time with retaining water? My body is crazy, I can go anywhere from 3 to 9 pounds in a day. I know that it is water weight but I really don’t know how to manage it. I mean I never thought that bread would make me hold water. I take water pills from the doctor but I would like to do it natrually. Any ideas from amyone would be greatly appreciated. Have a good day

The scale isn’t too nice:(

dawniegh — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 10:26:30 +0000

Good Sunday morning Buddies! I’ve been a little aggravated for a day and I thought if I blog it and get it off my chest I might feel better.

I weighed in Saturday for my forum team (Fitness Fanatics) and I lost 4 pounds. I worked hard for the lose but then I got up sunday and did what I know better to do….I got on the scale agian It went up 6 pounds. I almost cried. I have this problem where my body retains water real bad, mostly in my legs and Yes they were swollen and I knew better but I did it anyway!!! So that frustrasion turned into self distruction! I ate pizza, Chicken cassorole with lots cheese (2 helping) then I went and had a ice cream. I really feel like crap right now, I go threw this often and when Ifeel like this , it is soooo hard to keep positive. I just want to scream and let go.But I know that is how I got to the size I am , so here I go again starting over TODAY, not tommorrow, next week or even next month But right now!

I feel sad and discouraged but i’m gonna give it my best to turn this around. I found this to be a little funny , I guess a little humor never hurts …...

……. Well buddies thanks for listening to me and Now I am off to work and I’m gonna hold my head up high and be proud of what I have already changed and keep looking foward. You all have a Blessed Sunday.

P.S. I have a birthday to go to after work so wish me luck, I’m gonna skip the ice cream and cake….

Smell of the Dew

dawniegh — Fri, 26 Sep 2008 12:01:11 +0000

Well it is Friday morning and I just got home from working midnights and I thought I would come and check on my friends. I worked yesturday morning and when I got home I couldn’t sleep and then I went and worked mids , Much to my surprize I’m not that tired.The weather here is my favorite. Nice and cool in the mornings and the smell of dew on the grass, makes me want to walk. I think before I go to sleep I will go for a nice stroll.

I’m so excited! My daughter ,who is 20 , has been trying to get a job for a few months and she finally got hired in at a Dr. office, A foot and ankle specialist. She has worked for two days now ans she really likes it alot. She has good work ethics, When she has a job ,she doesn’t call just cuz , she knows her responsibilities. I think this will also help her with her weight. She isn’t very heavy ,maybe about 15 pounds. I told her we can help eachother and she is such encouragment to me. Well enough rambbling on, I’m gonna weigh myself agian today for my forum group.I’ll let you all know how I did. Everyone keep up the great work and God Bless you

On Sale now at Walmart…..

dawniegh — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 01:41:35 +0000

Okay, now ladies and gentleman I know it is to hard to believe but why not ?We tend to think Fad diets and diet pills and other quick fixes will help us look like this but in all reality the only way to look like this is hard work, persaverience, and strong will. At this point I wouldn’t even mind looking like the Lady looking in the mirror.

To those who want it now , just remember the now fix isn’t a life changing habit , you always go back to the old ways so take it slow and eat healthy, exersize and drink lots of water. Good luck to all my buddies and have a Blessed night.

3 pounds and it’s only Wednesday!

dawniegh — Wed, 24 Sep 2008 06:50:07 +0000

It is 2:40 in the morning and I am off to a 12 hour day, and after that I am off to take my Grandma to all her appointments, So I will have a long day. I will make it a point to walk today at my lunch or I don’t think I will have time. I am Happy to say that I have been right on track with eats and exersizing and I got on the scale for a sneak peak and I’ve lost 3 pounds.I am soooo Happy. I have to go but wanted to start by day with my Buddies. Hope you all have a blessed day…

Giggle-Giggle

dawniegh — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 02:38:53 +0000

Here is a giggle for you..I joined a walking challenge, in fact it is the thanksgiving walking challenge and I love all the members. We are having alot of fun and the challenge of competing with another team makes you really want to move your buns. I got this in my e-mail and thought i would share.

The Importance Of Walking:

Walking can add minutes to your life
This enables you at 85 years old
To spend an additional 5 months in a nursing home
At $7000 per month.

My grandpa started walking
Five miles a day when he was 60…
Now he’s 97 years old
And we don’t know where the hell he is.

I have to walk early in the morning,
Before my brain figures out what I’m doing.
Once I warm up I feel happy
It’s been a long time since I’ve heard heavy breathing!

Good Morning Buddies

dawniegh — Sun, 21 Sep 2008 10:31:33 +0000

Good Sunday Morning to all m y wonderful Friends! I woke today with a new attitude.I have been sick for the past week and I still feel little funny but that isn’t gonna stop me. I joined a walkinf challenge and fell way behind due to not being able to breath soooo today I will start making up the minutes I walk.

…….I will hold my head up and smell the world as I walk and Smile!I will give Thanks to my Heavly Father for all he has given me. I have alot of reasons to make this life time change and as long as I keep trying I’m doing good.

Well I hope everyone has a healthy active day and God Bless my Friends!

~Thats Why America is so Fat–

dawniegh — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 22:49:26 +0000

So… just to let you all know, I have fallen off the wagon. I have been sick all week with a head cold, can’t smell, can’t taste and can’t hear.You think that would make me not want to eat.Nooooo…Still like to eat.Believe it or not yesturday I drank i chocolate milk that was spoiled and didn’t even know it. Anyway, thats not what the blog is about

My daughter and I went to a fast food place for lunch today and we order our meal.They ask what size so I say medium. The lady hands us this drink that is almost as big as a liter of pepsi. Wow it hit me…This is why america is fat.I can’ remember when the meduims where what ? 16 oz. So it really made me think about the way we eat. I have been sipping this pop for the day. of course with a drink that big you feel no need to drink water and who wants to throw it away with prices the way they are, which leaves me to believe I need NOT to eat fast food anymore. That will be my goal for now , no fast food.

Ok , enough rambling, hope everyone has a nice weekend.